MAAAAAAN "/

AHHHH, i love philippines! i love it over here! so much people! christmas day was alright. a lot of lights! NEW YEARS was the BEST! i loved it! i wish i could stay longer! ): i met HELLLLLA cousins! made new friends. im gonna miss them! ahahh, so on new years eve, like hella early in the morning, people were already doing fireworks. well not the ones that light up in the sky and stuff, something else. and then later that night at like 10pm, we were lighting up A LOT! one of the loudest ones are called weasle bombs. its HELLA loud!!! my ears still hurt! and then like there's smoke that you cant inhale so like everyone was wearing bandanas over their mouths and yeah. ahah, i learned how to use a lighter! ahahha, ooooh and i had body guards! ahah.. jooooke. well they're just friends from like 2 houses down and then like they just block the stuff cause when it blows up they fly and then like they were like go inside go inside. then they'll stand in front of me when things blow up since they shoot of in the air, and like parts of it fly, sooo yeah. ahha! they're hella nice. at first, they were FUCKIN jerks! made fun of me. ahah, but now we're cool. ahha! i dont even know most of their names :x ill figure it out later. mmk, well thats all. HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE!


ya know, i dont really wanna leave. at least not yet...

gotta get ready !

leaving @ 4pm! gotta clean, do laundry! annnd vaccuum! already pack, hopefully didnt leave anything else! D:

closer &closer!

AHHHH! leaving tonight! im nervous! annnd excited! daaang, im gonna miss peoples birthdays )= ugh, i'll say it all now! ahah(=

HAPPY BIRTHDAY..

dec.23// Kaylene Lam
dec.24// Christiandy
dec.25// Chad Sagabean !
dec.27// Sarah Sok !
dec.29// Cheryl Nebre !
jan.2 // Uyen Ngo & JC Guevara !
jan.4 // r.i.p JEDRICK RANGCAPAN
jan.5 // Marissa Patubo
jan.6 // Ardee Magday !
jan.7 // Marc Mateo !
jan.8 // Miccah Gabaca! & Jann Antolin !


^^ and thats all the people i wont be able to say it to -___-'

this sucks!

booo, i've been texting this whoooole day! and for 3 weeks, 19 freaking days without it! suuuucks. )= im gonna miss it. i miss my cousins in fairfield! CAMILLE, i miss you bloood<3 ugh, i miss my buddy too! my beest buddy! he goes to evergreen highschool. ryan nguyen! jeez, havent seen him since.. september? its been forever! we've been going through the same shit! parents divorced, remarried. then MAAAAYBE divorced again. ahah, well i miss this guy! i've known him since 3rd grade? then he moved during 5th. saw eachother in 8th grade? annd then kept in touch since! hmm, nothing else to say. i regret not doing something last week. alriight, well goodnight! <3

tomorrow !

..is our flight ! tuesday, december 23, 2008. 9pm? i think at 9. well anyways, packing is soo haard! i dont know what to bring. annnd their plugs over there are DIFFERENT! ours is like 2. something, and there is 1. something? and if i plug a cord from the u.s. into the one they have it could either break their plug, break the device thingy, ooor.. blow up? ahah, thats what they were telling me. annnd then there's so many mosquitos, and like i have to put bug spray all the time! before i sleep, when i wake up, when i go somewhere, and i spray EVERYWHERE! well, wherever my skin shows. ahah. mmk, gotta finish packing clothes.

OMG, sooo for christmas, jenny got me an orange! (=
thao still owes me one! and i owe kevin one. ahah! mk, bye.

almost time,

to leaaave for philippines !!!

oh boooy! im still packing -___-! ugh, im so excited, and yet very nervous! the life style is different there, well from what i heard. and it sucks cause christmas and new years will be over there. it sucks only cause the four of us is going, and not my dad. )= i really want him there. but like before, i can't stop him from not doing what we want him to do. i know for sure im gonna cry. im gonna miss him! a lot! jeez, i hope he misses us too and not just my sister arianna. for the past couple days, it seems as if he likes aj more than me. annd with arianna, he said that he'll spend as much money as he can for her. give her everything she wants, because she wont be here for awhile. and then what do i get? nothing. "/ i just want him to know that he'll always be my dad. and i'll always love him. i want him to love me back. and my mom! especially my mom. well, enough of that, im about to have tears X: so anyways today will be our christmas, since we aren't gonna be here on the 25th. we're all in our rooms, me in mine, aj in his, arianna in my parents. ahah! SANTA CLAUS is coming (= ahha. so my sister and i baked brownies, and left coke! (= she's so cuuute!
ahah, soo im going to philippines for 3 weeks! missing the first week of school when we come back, im gonna miss everyone! and everything! no cell phone. maybe no computer. no shower ! i have to use the tabo? i have to study for finals. meet new and old relatives. meet cousins all over again! speak tagalog (= im sooo stressed right now though. finals! fuuuuck .. and im scared, of heights! i bet im freaking white wash. im not gonna like getting dirty and shiiit, ahah! well, time for our christmas day!!

btw:
HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

weell.

the morning was HELLA COLD! thank god my mom dropped us off! but the car was frozen. like the doors and the windows. took like 5 minutes to get half the window unfrozen and yeaaah. uhm, took a test in english. played this wierd game for pe in the small gym. my feet were soooo freezing cold. the mats were HELLA coold! and we had to take off our shoes. ugh. then spanish, barely did anything. got Ben in trouble! ahah(= biology, i understood what we were learning actually. which was cool(= geometry, amber and arturo weren't here so it felt EMPTY at our table. someone wrote on a paper that said open, read, and pass it on. haha! it was so dumb! it said "do you see a foot print on the ceiling? yeah? i do." i guess it just made you look stupid for looking up ? haha, but i didnt look up. tempting too though. :x then it came back to us so thao was gonna write something like, whats the crap on the "westside" oh its just you guys. until i told her something like "hey whats that on your neck? oh its just your face.. ? ahah i forgot, but everyone was laughing. i didnt think it was THAT funny. then kaylene and thao started talking loudly to eachother behind their back, like kaylene said something bout whoever wrote this is just jealous and ... other things, then thao said something back and then they just kept arguing until she was like can you say fagget ? so she said fagget. ahah, it was dumb.
^^ dang this thing looks pretty looong ! ahah, oh wells this is just my day. uhm, history didnt really do anything. but i have to finish my project cause im going outta state, outta the country for the winter break. im going to PHILIPPINES! whoo, on monday! i get to see my grandma, and everyone else. i wont be back till january 10? the day before finals, and a week break ends. oh boy. im excited, worried, and a whole lotta other stuff. after school went to the donut shop. HILARIOUS! haha, made a video the whole time we were there. its like so many secrets so im not gonna post it up. (x mmk thats all, bye !

BTW!
imissyou "/

monday.

todaay was boooring and cold. it hailed a bit. ran the turkey trot without the track backwards in the rain. got a ride from andrew. walked home. did my math homework! WHOO! uhm, i have like 3 presents down. so many more to go )=
time for hw. byee!

http://www.gopetition.com/petitions/esuhsd-save-interscholastic-athletics.html
^^ go to this site if you'd like to sign the petition ! its about the sports thingy. yeaaaah. mmk, just click it and read it !

saaaaturday.

so i ended up going no where yesterday. didnt go to the dance. didnt go to fairfield. but then, today woke up at like 8am. took a shower. packed, and went to fairfield. got to shons house around 1245ish. waited for my other cousin, camille, to come. she did, but she didnt stay very long. then we (mom/aj/arianna/aunt/shon) went to SAMs its like costco. actually, basically exactly like it. stayed there hella long. after went to vacaville outlet. went to coach, and that was it. i got a wrist wallet (= whoo! then to the mall. went to best buy. after, ate. and got stuff from victoria secret. uh, then went home. pretty loooong day. but it was fun in between. but pretty boring nooow. oh shoot, i just realized its 1:18am. D: daaaamn. nothing really to do. i bet im not gonna sleep till like 4 D: haha, oh wells. its a full moon tonite. gnites(;

I LOVE THIS!

i heard this song yesterday and LOOVED IT! (=
its freakin cuute! haha, well today was matthew nguyens and gainly to's birthday,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MATTHEW &&GAINLY! (=

errg.

so today was clements 19th birthday!
happy birthday clement!
he came down from santa cruz. his semester is over so he came down today. he was supposed to come during 5th period. but he couldnt. i thought i wasnt gonna get to see him either :O buut after school, i did! he was about to leave to! so i saw him just in time(= haha, so like clement is one of the coolest seniors from last year. we were in leadership together for the whole year and i barely talked to him till like the end of the year. we talked more cause of battle! which was cool! and then for senior goodbyes in leadership he made the looooongest speech. we didnt even go to lunch because of it. haha, but it was nice. &touching. so like its been hella long since i've seen him, and finally i did! haha. uhh, today went by kinda fast. 1st period took a test. 2nd period ran a mile. 8:32 (; haha. 3rd period took a test. 4th period did a lab. 5th period laughed most of the period! (= 6th period did another foldable thingy. but i gotta do it for homework right now! during lunch was the cutest shit ever! rj sang to mariel while he asked her to winterball! it was hella cuuuute! he sang forever, and changed the words a bit.

things are changing. dont know what to do. its like i dont even know you anymore. we dont talk, we dont hang out. and when we see eachother its just like sup?! well, whatever. well, if there isnt anything you wanna do. or if we somehow can't change anything, then idk. whatever i guess.

deal?

hm, so i still bought a dance ticket. hopefully my mom would still let me go. i know now she wants to go to fairfield. how, cause she was like if you guys need to wash your clothes wash 'em cause you needa pack for fairfield. so yeaaah. but i guess i kinda made a deal with her, by saying stuff about grades. and yeaaah, so she said she'll think about it. *sigh, i hope i go. i wanna go. like a couple days ago, i didnt want to. but then i think it'll be fun. SEXY SIX! <3 we planned this like a month ago! supposed to take pictures and what not. OMG, so i went to buy my tickets. but then, when i looked in my wallet. my money was gone! i bet someone took it! people go through my shit during break and lunch! fuckin homos! ugh, ima ask matthew, he always opens my backpack and messes around with me. ooor it could be thao. but thao would've given it back by now. so idk! i have a lot of homework to do. so peace (=

oh, i made a new blog thingy. try to find it(x PAHAHA!

@#$%!

grr! ugh, my mom is making me mad! she can be such a bitch sometimes! i sweear! uggh, and now.. she doesnt want me and my brother to go to winterball! fucking geeeey! and shes making up all this shit but i know she just doesnt want us to go cause she wants to go to fairfield. i mean, i dont mind going there. i like going there. i see my cousins and what not. buuut, i wanna go to winterball too! we planned this like what a month or two ago! maaan, i swear! fucking kill joy. ANNND today i was like hyper and shiit, i was happy! but she just ruined my day!

oh darn.

sigh sigh sigh. im still sick. getting better. slowly. haha, uhh minimum day tomorrow. sucks! im going home right after school "/ to watch my sister -___- oh wells. today was stuff your face day. but i went to fsu instead. i still have homework to do. k, lates!

this is short, but whatevers. im too lazy to say anything right now. haha! (=

brrr..

today was coold! teddy bear day! tomorrow, monkey day. hm, after school.. of course. target. with mariel martin (= ahah, the weekend was cool. PACQUIAO! (: spent a night at sheinas, went to iglesia ni cristo church. waited for sheina to get outta practice. its funny how, i go there sometimes, and people already know me. i went there and people just kept saying "hi jozielyn" or "hi joziel" annnd i dont even know them! freaaaky -___-' im doing better in spanish! im actually learning stuff(; ahahah. so 1st period. people brought bears! even Ms. Cargill! she brought 4. pe played this shark game. it was fun, sorta! hahah. 3rd period. took a test. EASY! why, not gonna say why(; haha. 4th period. BORING! except the converstaions we have. 5th period. i brought my binder to find out, we weren't gonna have a notebook check -______-' so i brought it for nothing! that sucked balls ! i gave this blonde test to arturo, and this other test? joke? idk, but yeah. it was funny. went to the ukulele meeting. not bad. 6th period worked on this assignment. 100 points o__O mines looks like SHIT! after school target. after, went to pcn. didnt even learn a dance! L . A . M . E ! well, i didnt ahah! i watched winterfest practice instead. played with the sexual dices that erick showed me. it was hella coold! and then andrew and kenny took off their jackets. and left it sooo, i put it on. and i asked them if i could take it home! haha(= andrew let me. i think. but kenny wanted his back. too bad, i had it on already! it kept me hella warm! thaaanks guys(= im tah tah tah TIIIRED! gooooodnights.

i realized things today. i kinda told jenny. winter ball friday. clements birthday thursday. gainly and matthews birthday friday. donn john's gonna visit on friday! PSH, annd expects me to make a poster for gainly FOR HIM -____-' jeez, ahah! but im down. kinda.


actually, no chin mendiola told me who! (= he told me both their names! except he didnt tell mariel.
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wednesday, 12/3

orange juice sounds yummy right about now

wow, barely saw you today. things dont seem like they're working out, ya know ? i want them too though. but how can it. i dont know. minimum day. target. martin found his wallet. bought me and mariel lunch. CLAM CHOWDER (: yum. i lost my voice this morning :/ it hurted. it was hecka foggy! but it was cool(; i liked it. except when i have p.e. its COLD!!! i have auditions on saturday, in oakland at like 11ish? and its like semi-formal i guess. its an acting thing, modeling too. and i dont know what else. but im nervous. i havent done this in awhile! i acted when i had drama class, which was back in middle school. and i guess i kinda did acting when i was cleopatra. and modeling! oh boy, i haven't done that since i was 7? loooooong time ago -__-' but shhh, no one knows (x i dont tell people that. haha. UGH, IM SICK! i hate getting sick, it triggers my asthma. "/ sucks! its hard to breathe. my throat hurts. i feel like i just wanna go lay down, and sleep! but i gotta finish my homework. GAAAH! dang procrastination! but its all good. im actually doing it(;
my eyes hurt still, i chopped up onions earlier, oh jeez! they fuckin' hella BURN! omg! i heard no chin mendiola likes someone :O but damn b!#@% won't tell his two bestfriends ):< whaattageey!

slow day.

oh jeez, the time passed by really slow today. meilani and i matched. UNPLANNED. haha. got a new student in spanish class. his name is funny. haha! sorry, but it is. street hockey for p.e. i guess its pretty fun. but its cold! my grade for biology went up, but went back down ): I HATE THE TESTS in that class. they dont even make sense. went to target after school. martin bought presents. then lost his wallet. went home around 3, cleaned up the house. did laundry :/ decorated the christmas tree (=

as each day goes by, things start to fade. why? i dont really know why. things just arent happening or like changing.. ?

ventings.

not really venting. i just like re-read what i wrote when i vented out. pretty much the same stuff is going on. dad's not here. still at concord. basically, nothings gonna change. i guess we just need to give him time? or something, and do stuff without him and jsut see if he misses us..
venting4.venting3.venting2.venting1.venting5.

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lala, first blog of this month! im bored. tired. hungry. my throat hurts. i think i lost my voice! well, somewhat. cause like once i got home, played rockband. and freaking, im tired! i like just yelled when i was supposed to be singing, hahah! oh wells! unlocked all the songs yo'! OH! mariel, is now off my christmas list. we already planned on what we were getting her. hm, i have hella people still though! and its hard cause i dont wanna get them something they wouldnt like. but w/e! so so, jenny told me i was in her dream, and i was talking to a plant! BAHAHAH! and in my dream, she was in it too, she was talking to a four-leaf clover. about her goldfish. and then she started getting mad, and yelled in vietnamese O.o haha, yeahp. i was in annie's dream too! haha, not gonna say it tho X; mmm, first period had free time. second period, power walked to linear, third period had free time. fourth period, basically free time. fifth period, did an oral report. sixth period portfolio check worth 200 points! then free time. haha! during break was funny. i guess we just have fun when we're always together. me, donita, martin, and mariel. yuups. went to ukelele club. but i dont really wanna be in it. tomorrow, FSU! i got the drums, whoo! after school went to target with sarah sak! chinsy mackay! no chin mendiola! and agay(ajay) haha. then went home, cause i had to babysit. L A M E! i think i have homework. dont know. too lazy to do it! but i have to "/